I am my Beloved's

The past few weeks the overwhelming realization I have been coming to is that I belong to the Lord. I know this shouldn't be such a big surprise. But, though I have a happy demeanor and have tried my best to exude love to those around me, I've spent such a big part of my life trying to find a place to "fit" or "belong". I've been looking for someone to love me truly, wholeheartedly and unashamedly. And everyday God is showing me that I belong to Him; that He sent His Son to be my salvation, my best friend, my beloved. 

I'm realizing that I'm completely head over heels in love with my Beloved. And I know now it's okay to want to belong to Him. Because His love is better than wine, better than anything else out there. I can search the world over and I will never find anything that compares to His goodness and love. For so long, because of the hurt i've experienced, I have chosen to not give myself fully to my Beloved. It's because of the fear I had deep within:  that He would not love me in return as deeply as I love Him. But everyday He is whispering His words of love to me. Not only do I hear it, I see it everywhere. And I'm learning to walk in assurance; even if I'm not "feeling" all the mushy gushy feelings that I think love should embody. As I love Him and desire Him, He sets His desire for me. It's not a one way street. Nor is it just me chasing Him. Because I know that I know that He is earnestly pursuing me. He wants me as much as I want Him. 

"I am my beloved's and His desire is for me"

Song of Solomon 7:10

I belong to Him.